back in the days

It's the 3rd day that Raphaël is away from home. I haven't felt this lonely for a long time.He left thursday night to Vendée, to the other side of France for fête familial, family gathering.
I didn't want to go this time, not the right timing with money and all, as I was just in Finland not long time ago.

Long story short, this is the 3rd day alone. He is coming back tomorrow night, finally. And I miss him.

As the days goes by, I realise how the life would be without Raph and the fact of living alone in
foreign country. I don't have any close friends. I have friends that I've met through Raph,
they are super nice but it's not that kind of friends that we would see when R is not around.

Then I have friends from the university, and friends of friends..more like acquaintance. Someone to say hello to, ask how are you and that's it.
Except for Helena, my swedish friend, but she lives in Lyon (over 200km away from Avignon).
I wish we could live more close like we used to.

It is hard to make friends in foreign country, the best way would be to have a hobby and find people who share the same interest. Or go to student events, couchsurfing meetings or find friends from internet. 

Why I haven't done that, you might ask. Well.. how to put this.. I'm VERY shy. If I can speak finnish, it's alright. I'm not shy in finnish. But when it comes to making friends in french or english,something's just holding me back. It doesn't feel as natural as speaking finnish. 

I know it's not only the language, but only the ones who have been in a situation that you are the only
one who isn't native english/french/otherlanguage speaking person, it feels like you are the only stranger in the crowd.

So more than ever again, I miss Finland. Without R in my life, I would move back to Finland.
I thought I would stay, but this weekend made me realise that I wouldn't have anything here without R.

I am sorry to burden all you with the problems here in blog, but this is my blog, my life and what is happening now. 

I went through old photos, with friends and family. 

I have friends, I just wish I could spend more time with them.

My sister is definetly one of my best friends.

I can't wait to have her here in July, please send good wibes to her

as she inured her knee lately and will have operation. I have fingers and toes crossed that she will be able to travel on July and come here!

my mama is a friend of mine.

and my dad too.

with Mél,Toma and Sév.

(don't mind Toma, he's always like that)

and Gui,Alex,Rémy and Lucie.

So what to do at home when you are alone? Actually you can do what ever you feel like, everything you would do with a friend too!
Go to the movies, have a coffee on the terrace, anything. But as I'm still short with the money, I didn't want to spend too much this weekend.

So I made a movie marathon at home, I watched Pretty woman (never seen before, he he it was about the time!) Sweet november and it was bad - even Keanu Reeves was bad! 2 last episodes of Grey's anatomy (and I cried a LOT), Ghost (Patric Swazey never fails) and started watching Gone with the wind with Clark Gable, I loved that when I was kid.

I wanted so badly be dressed like the girls in the film, so I tried to re-create the dressed by adding all my dresses in layers, I loaned my mom's summer hat and put string around it, trying to look like Scarlett.
I have pictures of me dressing up, next time I need to find the prints from my parents house, hee hee.

 

 

Yesterday I went to the supermarket to get dirt, so I can change the dirt to the plants today and put basil and pepper to grow, if the seeds aren't too old. I have all plants up the the highest places of the apartment, so Léonie wouldn't eat these. When I was in Finland, she ate one of the plants and got really sick.

Do you have any tricks how to prevent cats eating plants, or what kind of plants would be ok to have (not dangerous, and maybe won't attract cats)?

Cactus? 

I'm sure léonie would try it at least once he he.

And last but not least, 

my best friend.

This was taken in 2006, the first time we met in person.

I will tell the story next time, it's not a normal story where the boy meets the girl one night out.

It's a story about a boy who travels 3000km to meet the girl.